aug 28 the day before tomorrow

aug 22 room before
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

I woke up in a start this morning. I had dreamed that I was living
platonically with Tommy Lee and we had one kid. Not sure whether the kid
was his or mine or ours. He had tucked me into bed because I was tired
after serving me dinner.

I think this must be a metaphor for my life of late. Trying to do the
impossible.

Classroom is still not ready for tomorrow (went into school for four hours
on Saturday and then conquered Meijers at 7:30 P.M.)

Kids are still sleeping in and I have to find five backpacks and five
lunchboxes that are in the house somewhere to get ready for tomorrow.

May have to mow lawn in there somewhere as well as figure out what I am
actually going to do with the kids (not mine, the school ones) tomorrow.

It all comes together and gets better eventually but the panic and anxiety
is getting worse every year I do this.

Tommy Lee and no sex? He made me dinner? What kind of a dream is that?

aug 25 footsie

aug 25 footsie
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

Kids were kicking each other on the couch, they are ready to go back to school. I am beyond exhausted and have several days of work to do in just one day tomorrow.

I'd love it if someone would rub my feet but it's not going to happen. Everyone keep a good thought or two for me for tomorrow. I have to meet the new parents and the good thought is so that I don't put my foot in my mouth or say something dumb and that every new parent will love me at first glance. Sigh.

aug 23 arm farting

aug 23 arm farting
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

Sort of sums up my day. Arm farting. Hope to sleep better tonight.

aug 21 more droop

aug 21 more droop
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

This is surely how I am feeling tonight. Summer is over and been hit with a punch. Still can't fit into that thicker skin I need. Dad's words remind me about being down and up. You can't always be one or the other.

Tomorrow morning I have to get up early. Ack. Shouldn't be too bad though, I like computer meetings. Hopefully the systems administrators will have had a good summer and not bore us with too many of their achievements and instead give some practical information that I can take and use.

I'm ending because some stinging words are hanging and won't go away.

Does the sunflower really droop to protect it's seeds? Maybe that's why I feel this way.

aug 20 gardening

aug 20 gardening
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

I was watering the flowers today and saw signs of fall. HOW can this BE? There were leaves on the ground and orange berries on the Mountain Ash and the sunflowers were drooping. Something is not right. The equinox was last week, I know it was.

I am not ready for fall and am going to plant something more to spite it from happening. I hate football and the smell of burning leaves.

I would like to see the colored leaves but please give me a few more days of summer and sleep.

aug 18 assignment

aug 18 assignment
Originally uploaded by noearlybird.

Summer is almost over and I haven't written everyday. I have taken a picture everyday so far. This has been lots of fun.